-weird-
it has been a month since i started work
this was e first time i did not sleep
am i getting old or is it just me
i am practically burnt out
cannot think properly
i believe alot of people are still sleeping
in their cosy and warm bed at 4am O.o
and here we were eating nasi lemak
at serangoon punggol nasi lemak
after long hours of mahjong
well, i know that it's weird to have rice at 4am
but still i practically finished all of it
especially that crispy chicken wing!
but i dont understand why at 4am
many ppl were there eating too
no matter how tired i felt
i couldnt sleep soundly at all
it was already 5am in the morning
all i did was staring blankly in the dark
and slept eventually but also weirdly on the sofa
never felt so tired and weird
like my brain is gg to explode anytime
even my neck feels soar and extremely pain
and worse of all my mum was waking me up at 9am!!
3 hours of sleep and everything seemed blur to me at that time
just come to realise
the contact lens solution is banned
and it's the same one as what i am using
no wonder my eyes were swollen the other time
luckily i stop using if not who knows what will happen
dreaming of you 8:20 PM
-value-
the value of most things will drop
when one grows old (salary)
when one is tired of something
when there are plenty of something
when old phones are used for long time
actually time passes very fast
now i am in that company for 3 weeks
wonder is a good or bad thing
it should be time to prove my value
but why i seems to be slow in everything i do
something cant be forced
just like it takes time before i can excel
maybe contact lens/covered shoes are not suitable for me
i should just turn back to the plain jane i used to be
simple, easy & carefree of the things around me
*or is this an excuse for me to be lazy?*
despite the heavy workload and stress
i really enjoy my work or rather my workplace
accessible, sheltered, & bird's view from my seat
not forgetting my favourite Ferris Wheel, sea and sky
i am really fortunate to be protected from the world out there
although i have to lunch alone
i feel very blessed all the time
like miracles always happen just for me
*or am i easily contended over the slightest things*
just like when my cousin was unable to meet me for lunch
the next moment my aunt called asking me to join her for lunch
i am really thankful for the care and concern showered
just received my pay
my first month pay, the feeling is really different
suddenly i got alot of things i want to buy
and the greatest things of all great singapore sales!!
is time for me to do some planning heehe =P
dreaming of you 8:33 AM
-poor feet-
why must it be covered shoes
i never like that before
making my feet full of blisters
finally back from course
saturated with all the readings
ever ready to apply them
though office seems more comfortable
but course has more interactions
more lively than the dead city in my office
why must there be health checkup
ending up fast-ing for 12 hrs
and going thru the tonnes of tests
*looking forward to receiving my name cards*
dreaming of you 10:27 PM
-feeling empty inside-
is this what my life is going to be
evolving around with work & sleep
i began to feel very insecure
unsure of what is going to happen
everything seems to be too fast
there is no place for me
even breathing can be hard at times
is it my problem or the environment factors
now there is nothing i can do
but to live day by day
is that the only ideal way out
or am i running away from reality
i dun know myself either
dreaming of you 3:32 PM
-reports, reports and more reports-
i always tot i'll nv have to do anymore reports
but ended up with more reports & datelines
where are all the info and data i needed
they seem to disappear into thin air
i cant imagine i spent the entire day
looking for industry statistics & reports
but as usual i found nothing of them useful
at this rate things will definitely go out of hand
lucky my colleagues are helpful
always updating & teaching new things
but there is one thing that i find it very weird
why they dont have the practice of lunching together
at such a crowd place, it's really weird to have lunch alone
u can never guess where my company outing is at
*night safari* weird isnt it
anyway just hope nothing go wrong on that day =p
dreaming of you 11:15 PM
-day by day-
time flies very fast
it's been 3 days after my first day of work
i am now saturated with information
careful with everything
tired all the time day by day
no matter how tired i am
i still want to go sight seeing
to be induced in the beautiful nature out there
i cant believe myself that i was able
to go cycling and ktv after long day of work
no wonder i was tired
more work + hard play = dead tired
heehe (",)
so envious of those who are overseas for graduation trip
hai i still have 6 more months to go holiday >.<
dreaming of you 5:13 PM
