-pain of one sided love-
however long the night, the dawn will break
after that all those bad memories will be gone
how i wish it's that case
always reminding myself it's no use
but it's like bad dreams haunting me every night
no one there, no one cares, it's tiring after so long
how i feel to just sit under a sky of stars, having a good rest
my dream house here
with all the stars keeping me accompany
while keeping myself busy, not to think too much
no one seems to know my existence
everyone just go past and seem to be very busy
maybe i just like to be alone
all by myself even not with my relatives
i don't mind to be alone,
don't mind that no one notices me
enjoy being alone, being insignificant
sad as i may be, but the days just go on
feeling myself escaping, moving into shadows
tears dropping like rain
silently aware, darkness overcome me
indescribable pain, fear hurt anguish? i don't know myself either
i knew it clearly myself that
the days will not be coming back
everything has changed, you didn't even look back
i can't hold on anymore
times seems to be hard to pass
a cheerful/"never mind" person i may seem to be
heart breaking every moment, i tot i'm strong
is it just a bad dream that I'm going to wake up
but the truth really hurts
here I sit, all alone, crying myself to sleep
how I wish the raindrops would fall to cover my tears
i hope this shall be the last day of holding on
